Paperwork Has Been Signed

The divorce paperwork was delivered on Saturday and today while at work, I signed it all.

I am thankful for the 3 women at work today who served as my notary and witnesses as I initialed the bottom of every page and signed the last page. I am blessed to work with these women who have been so supportive during this process.

One more step closer to the legal aspect of the whole process coming to an end.

Fresh Air

It is amazing how much better a big inhale of fresh air can make you feel. Today is such a beautiful day weather wise and I took to spending some time outside to enjoy it. I put on my sneakers, grabbed my iPod and set out on foot this morning. Taking deep breath after deep breath as I walked. It was nice to inhale air that wasn't bitterly cold.

Plus the sun felt good. I know that 62 really isn't that warm but it felt so nice to be able to be outside for a change. I wish that this weather would last, but it's winter in North Carolina and this is just a tease. But the timing is perfect.

Now that I am back inside, I even have the windows open and the fans on to try to get some of the fresh air inside. I tried to sit outside on my balcony, but it doesn't get any sun, so it was a little chilly since there is a slight breeze blowing. But I am sitting on the sofa beside the sliding glass doors that are open and can still appreciate the fresh air.

Fresh air, sun and a nice long walk. Great ingredients for making me want to live, laugh and love again.

What did you do today to enjoy the sunshine?

A Good Nights Sleep

I have figured out the best thing for being able to learn to live, laugh and love again.... it is a good nights sleep. I can't remember the last time that I slept through the night. But last night I did. I crawled into bed a little before 11 pm and did not wake up at all until my alarm went off at 7:05 this morning.

Now don't get me wrong, I have slept other nights, but usually I wake up every few hours and then I can usually fall back asleep. Most nights I toss and turn or wake up and just lay there or even have trouble actually falling asleep.

I don't know if it was the big glass of wine that I had before bedtime, or the new comfy and extra soft sheets on my bed, or the stuffed animal that I cuddle with. Not real sure what it was, but whatever occurred in my body or head it was nice.

I woke up feeling refreshed and ready to start another Monday and another week. So my focus now each night is trying to figure out how to make that all happen again.

Any ideas?

Quiet Time

It is important to sit and be quiet. To think and to listen to your heart. It is also okay to be alone. Quiet time is also good nap time, just in case you were wondering.

This afternoon was a time to be quiet. Not a bad use of a really cold Saturday afternoon. The sofa, a UNC blanket and two cats. To bad that I don't have a fireplace in my apartment. I think that I will add that to my list of wants when I start looking for my new place.

Turning Point

So all relationships have some sort of turning point, whether it is 11 years after they have started or 2 months into one. Turning points are needed. They are healthy, they foster change, the are good. However they may seem bad or scary at the time they occur but once the dust settles you realize that a change is happening or will happen. A turning point occurs with either something is said or an action takes place that makes you stop and think about what just happened. A turning point is a realization.

I have had a turning point this week. I think that it has a lot to do with the fact that the reality of what is going on in my life is starting to settle in. I think it has to do with the fact that I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The train is coming around the turn and daylight is there.

One night I am curled up sleeping with one stuffed animal and the next night I am placing that one in box and curling up with another one. One night there is hope, the next night there is the reality that change is happening. One night there is love and the next night there is the need to let go. One night there are kind thoughts, the next night there is frustration. One night there is a build up of emotions, the next night they are all released. One night there is a smile, the next night tears. One night there is love, the next night it starts to fade.

But most importantly, the night becomes a day and the day brings on a turning point. A change takes place. Things happen.

I hope to continue to have more turning points whether good or bad. Change is good.